Be your own savior

Looking back at these couple months, I realize how low I had become.

It all boils down to a negative mindset and a constant fear: running out of money

I fear my photographer skill is suck and can't making money, I fear I run out of money and I have to look for a job, but I don't want to work!

These thoughts produce tons of negative feeling, even impacting while I wake up, I instantly feel hopeless, trying to fall asleep again, not because I was tired, but I was avoiding facing the life. Then constantly looking for the video, the video that I watch, then all of sudden can change my life. looping into this cycle again and again, then I realize, No one is coming to save me